Staying the Course
By Louise LeBrun
It's been almost 10 years now, since I first started my own small business. All those
romantic notions of independence, freedom and great wealth have been overtaken by long
hours, hard work and the uncertainties brought by never knowing what tomorrow will bring.
Sometimes, I long for the "good ole' days" and the pay check, paid holidays and
child-care leave that went with it!
And yet, truth be told, just like you - I wouldn't go back for all the money in the
world! To build something from nothing; create and invent on a daily basis; and to
contribute how, when and why I see fit are far greater rewards that I could ever have
imagined. The key is to keep moving through and past those undeniable, inevitable moments
of self-doubt and fear.
Home-based business operators often spend large chunks of time alone. Although
telephone contact may be frequent, sometimes two or three days can go by without seeing
another life form that has fewer than four legs. The end result is a sense of
disconnection from the world. However, this sense of disconnection is minor compared to
the sense of disconnection that I sometimes feel from myself: from my hopes and
aspirations; from my plans; and from the very dream that started the whole thing, so long
What I've learned over the years is that holding the dream is one thing - continuing to
believe in my ability to breathe life into it is quite another. My greatest challenge has
been to continue to believe in myself when others didn't; when the evidence in my bank
statements, for all intents and purposes, screamed "Give it up!"; and when even
my most ardent fans and supporters looked at me with great concern on their faces. Who
would hold the dream?
If any of this rings true for you, perhaps the following thoughts will prove to be as
meaningful for you as they have been for me. I share them with you with the hope that, in
your darkest moments - as they ebb and flow like the tides - you will remember to:
Breathe! How easy it is to forget to breathe. Notice when you are holding your breath;
and when your breathing has moved high in your chest. Whatever you are doing in that
moment, STOP! Sit back in a chair; make a conscious decision to drop your shoulders, put
your feet flat on the floor; let your arms hang loose by your sides, and take three, long,
deep breaths. Focus all your attention on the sound of your own breathing moving in and
out of your body. As you hear this sound, know that the Life Force is present, moving and
vital; and that as you invite it to move freely through you, you will know exactly what to
Pay attention to the impulses in your body. Notice where your attention is drawn; let
your attention go to those places in your body where you are aware of sensations: the knot
in your stomach; the tightness in your throat; the knit of your brow. Breathe directly
into these places and allow yourself to notice whatever sounds or images come to mind. Use
your breath to move into the information, expand that area of the body, and open and
release that information into the larger system, meaning the whole body. Your body is the
instrument that thinks.
And finally, allow yourself to know the truth. Even if you never utter a word to another
soul, or share this truth with anyone in any way, let yourself - deep inside you - know
what is true for you. As you embrace and honor this truth, you will begin to notice that
the images and the sounds move and change. As they do, become aware of your desire to
contribute; to make a difference; to have meaning in your life; to care. And as that
vision that caused you to become who you are today begins to reform, allow all of those
other images and sounds to melt into it. Keep your body open and relaxed - and breathe.
What it has taken me many years to come to understand is that the very thoughts I
feared were the ones that held the greatest value. When I allowed myself to hold those
thoughts, and let them move through my body, they became the markers on the road into the
future. I leave you with the following thought, to guide you along your path.
"Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow the talent to the dark
place where it leads". (Erica Jong)
Copyright © 2009, WEL–Systems Institute All rights reserved.
Louise LeBrun - Founder of Partners in Renewal Inc. and the
WEL-SystemsŪ Institute, is a daring and provocative writer,
speaker, educator and facilitator. With over 20 years of seasoned
expertise in organizational development, management of change,
interpersonal communications and strategic thinking, her unique
perspective has supported thousands in achieving both personal and
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